Guys, this has been weighing really heavily on me.
This going to be embarrassing
but I just don’t know what else to do.
You know, I have to come clean
because it’s SERIOUSLY bothering me.
HAUNTING ME.
I want to issue an official apology for judging the Tennis album off of one listen & agreeing with Pitchfork & tweeting it & trying to act like I don’t fucking love this shit. I mean, in the moment, it made sense but now every time I listen to the Tennis album (every day) & love it so dearly, I get this sinking feeling in my heart. Like, that I am a liar. Or that I lied. Or… something. I didn’t even say anything bad but just the fact that I wasn’t immediately like THIS IS THE BEST!!! I feel like that moment was so untrue to my character. I must have been about to start my period cause I don’t know what I was thinking. And I just really wanted to clear the air. I mean, I am totally KNOWN for being a sucker for dream-pop with ocean themes. Like, WHO WAS I KIDDING?
NOT ME.
I DIDN’T EVEN KID MYSELF.
Well, I did for like a minute.
But now I just feel guilty.
Like if I had said something mean about Dudefriend in a public forum.
I never have & never plan to, but i imagine it would feel a lot like this.
Like being a horrible untrue person! And that’s not how I roll at all!
You guys, I was working out this morning listening to Tennis and started CRYING. I STARTED CRYING. I WAS LIKE, I LOVE THIS. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! THIS IS ALL I WANT FOR ME & DUDEFRIEND’S FUTURE. THIS EMBODIES MY DREAMS. WHY DID I WRITE THAT TWEET?! IT WASN’T EVEN THAT MEAN, I MEAN, I NEVER SAID I DIDN’T LIKE IT, BUT I STILL FEEL TERRIBLE! JUST TERRIBLE!
I did make another statement,
but that just wasn’t enough for my soul apparently.
Anyway, this is my attempt to be able to feel good about my relationship with Cape Dory, WHICH I SHOULD. I should feel great about it. I DO FEEL GREAT ABOUT IT. CAPE DORY, I’M SORRY, BABY. I LOVE YOU.
[Currently Listening 2 Tennis heh]
From my experience, it seemed like everyone I knew, including myself had a weird reaction to Tennis’ album but it’s something that really lingers with you. I got to see them live a week or two ago and they really blew me away with how good of a show they can put on. I also got to interview them and they are one of the nicest bands I’ve met so far.
That’s so good to hear! I’ve yet to see them live! I’m mad jealzzz.
i like the “Marathon” song
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