For the past year, it seems every three months I get really rich, then lose a gig, get really rich & lose a gig. I am no longer a frivolous person (after two years on the starving artist plan), so these fluctuations in income aren’t really THAT big of a deal. I mean, sure, there is the initial week long ” 
I’M NOT GONNA BE A BALLER THIS YEAR ” and then of course the intermittent bouts of nearly Tourettic cursing seizures that involve me raising my fists to the sky & swearing at the economy, billionaire playboys, je.. CEOS, my parents and myself, for my terrible optimism I’ve had since I dropped out of college & somehow thought that would land me in six figures… which it will! Eventually… ahem,
But that all fades and I settle back comfortably into my spot on the couch with my laptop, enjoying the sunshine from my window overlooking the East end of Sunset, remembering that I’ve had a lot of money before & it didn’t make me happy and that I’ve had very little money & have been very happy.
The only time it really hits me is on Sundays,
where my salary was generally equated to
an infinitely indefinite number of mimosas.
Damn that was so sweet! Just being like “YEAH I’LL HAVE, NOTHER!” after like my sixth $8 mimosa. GOD I LOVED THOSE DAYS TWO MONTHS AGO! THAT’S WHAT I’D BE DOING RIGHT FUCKINGGG NOWWW!!! It was just like whatever, I don’t buy shoes. I’m not frivolous. I CAN DRINK AS MANY OF THESE FUCKERS AS I WANT AND CALL IT A BREAKFAST AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHH!!!
Sidenote: are you ever looking through pictures & then are like WHERE THE HELL IS THAT SHIRT?! Then you start like mentally scanning all the piles you have in your closet and cross-referencing them with your hamper, the load you have in the washer and the possible purses you may have stuffed it into after you were leaving Dudefriend’s in the morning and decided just to wear your hoodie on your walk of shame?
Yeah, I’m doing that right now & I’m seriously like DAMN IF I LOST THAT BLACK SHIRT, I DO NOT MAKE ENOUGH MIMOSAS TO REPLACE IT.
[Currently Listening 2 Tennis' Marathon <3 via Weekly Tape Deck]
I know EXACTLY what you mean. I recently lost my baller status and am having a really hard time dealing with it.
it sucks because, like a month ago I was spending money like a mad man and not giving a shit! Now I have to sit at the bar and watch people drink awesome beers while I drink PBR, and only half as many as said fancy beer people.
ughhh i know it’s the worst!
i hope you get back to ballin’ soon dude!